Get all 20 Ben Lazarus releases available on Bandcamp and save 20%.
Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality downloads of Ayy, My Mood Is, Hamster, Cold Cuts, Got Me Wondering, Nuts In Space, The Cost of Christmas, Outrun the Truth, and 12 more.
1. |
Got Me Wondering
02:19
|
|
||
.............
LYRICS:
You got me wondering all night and day
Who made the stupid rules in this game we play
We’re hiding the hurt cuz we’re setting the scene
Living our best lives on everyone’s screens
Overshare to make the world care
Roll the highlight reel selling my appeal
Up on my soapbox now I’m here to say
I got some exercise and look good today
And here’s a hot take to stir the pot
My best impression of someone I’m not
Overshare to make the world care
Roll the highlight reel selling my appeal
Compare and Despair
Compare and Despair
Compare and Despair
Compare and Despair
Despair Despair Despair
It’s been two hours now but still I scroll
There are no carrots in this rabbit hole
I finally know now that less is more
So why does unplugging feel like a chore?
Overshare to make the world care
Roll the highlight reel selling my appeal
You got me wondering
|
||||
2. |
Methadone
02:04
|
|
||
.............
LYRICS:
I’d rather be alone
Than take you to your methadone
Cherry syrup keeps you from feeling sick
Then you go and chill with your sugar daddy dick
I’ve known you for years and you’ve changed a lot
Your drug of choice is heroin and mine is not
Give me back my tripod when I come to drop your stuff off
Walking our dogs hand in hand
The public park suddenly turned into candyland
We lay on the grass, I watched you smoke
Nugget sniffed Sasha’s ass and I made a joke
Now I’m at home with my guitar
And I don’t give a fuck where you are
Give me back my tripod when I come to drop your stuff off
You can go down to the mission and score a balloon
Bring the happiness home and cook it in your spoon
Before you nod off be sure not to call me
I’d rather be alone
Than take you to your methadone
Cherry syrup keeps you from feeling sick
Then you go and chill with your sugar daddy dick
I’ve known you for years and you’ve changed a lot
Your drug of choice is heroin and mine is not
Give me back my tripod when I come to drop your stuff off
|
||||
3. |
Outrun the Truth
03:28
|
|
||
.............
LYRICS:
There’s no victims here
Only volunteers
You signed up for the show
In spite of what you know
We all understand
You’re here to build a brand
You’re on the road to be a wreck for all to see
You can’t talk fast enough to outrun the truth
Lying at the end of a wasted youth
You’re hoping that you’ll win
We’re all tuning in
To the feedback loop
I saw you on the soup
The good times that you had
Are looking really bad
Trade dignity for fame
That’s how to play the game
You can’t talk fast enough to outrun the truth
Lying at the end of a wasted youth
After your season airs
The sequel is despair
Cause there’s no room for you
To be on season two
Your hot streak’s running cold
At 26 years old
Go watch your DVR
To find out who you are
You can’t talk fast enough to outrun the truth
Lying at the end of a wasted youth
You can’t talk fast enough to outrun the truth
Lying at the end of a wasted youth
You can’t talk fast enough to outrun the truth
Lying at the end of a wasted youth
|
||||
4. |
Sunnyvale
03:21
|
|
||
.............
LYRICS:
A Haunted Toys R Us
Made my hometown famous
A statue sits and reads
One book is all that he needs
Sunnyvale is where I hail from
In the heart of the South Bay
You can diss it, I still miss it
Ever since I moved away
The orchards are long gone
There’s strip malls where their names live on
Downtown is just one block
You know that murphy street rocks
Sunnyvale is where I hail from
In the heart of the South Bay
You can diss it, I still miss it
Ever since I moved away
A city logo like an ice cream cone
It’s worth a visit for Golf Land alone
Sunnyvale to me you’ll always be
A land of stucco and glass
Through which several freeways pass
One suburb in a long line
But damn it that one was mine
Sunnyvale is where I hail from
In the heart of the South Bay
You can diss it, I still miss it
Ever since I moved away
|
||||
5. |
Bunjee
03:48
|
|
||
………..
LYRICS:
I woke up with a shattered head
Wondering what I did and said
I know it’s gonna be bad news
There’s puke dried on my shoes
Behavior that I can’t defend
I’m driving away all my friends
The flames from the bridges I’ve burned
Won’t melt cold shoulders turned
But each and every one I’ve earned
I’m sweating bullets drying out
Looking within while I live without
Burnt coffee and folding chairs
Why do all these weirdos care?
Read the book and take the chips
Forcing the prayers from my lips
There really must be something wrong
If this is where I belong
I’m eager to prove I’ve changed
No longer drunk and deranged
Now I’m one man instead of two
Can I ever make it up to you?
That’s something I hope I can do
Rejections got me afraid
I don’t want to lie in the bed I’ve made
Some wounds can’t be healed
Sobriety becomes my shield
Changing all the things I can
Building from a better plan
Facing my resentments and fears
Days become months then years
The program’s not for everyone
But it’s the most important thing I’ve done
I had to adapt to survive
It’s the reason I’m alive
May you all grow and thrive
|
||||
6. |
Waiting for Lacy to Call
02:14
|
|
||
………..
LYRICS:
I’m waiting for Lacy to call
I don’t know if she’ll call me at all
I’m waiting for Lacy to call
I wonder if she’ll call me at all
So I wait by the phone
For that ring to make me lift my hand
From the armrest of my leather chair
Till then I’ll keep playing my PS2
Still waiting for Lacy to call
I wonder if she’ll call me at all
I’m not waiting for Lacy to call
I don’t care if she calls me at all
Still I wait by the phone
For that ring to make me lift my hand
From the armrest of my leather chair
Till then I’ll keep playing my PS2
Call me and you can play some Playstation too
My phone says SOS calls only
And it’s leaving me feeling so lonely
I’m waiting for Lacy to call
Will she call me at all?
|
||||
7. |
Buddy List
03:00
|
|
||
………..
LYRICS:
I like a girl I’ve never met
I found her on the internet
We IM’d and quickly became friends
She sends me pictures and it lifts my mood
Pretty sure she’s not a dude
We’ll meet next week
Then I’ll feel like less of a geek
She won’t be just a name on my buddy list
But a real live girl to hug and kiss
No more need to type LOL
When we laugh and talk we won’t have to spell
I hope what I feel for her is real
We met last week, I wasn’t floored
Hey let’s face it, I was bored
She kissed me like her lips were two dead fish
Am I lonely? Was my judgment poor?
I don’t like her anymore
She just sent me a text
What will I do next?
Will I tell her she’s rejected
Or that my laptop got infected
Yeah I’m on a top secret mission
Can’t get online without permission
Got one bar of signal on my cell
Can’t hear you too well
When you talk through a window
You can be who you want to be
But is there a brain behind the pretty face I see?
Meeting girls online is nerdy
And surfing sites for porn feels dirty
Am I better off going to the bar
Getting way too drunk to drive my car
I think I’ll just stay home
And turn off my phone
|
||||
8. |
Staying In
02:32
|
|
||
.............
LYRICS:
If we could go anywhere I wouldn’t
But bothers me that I couldn’t
As the menus getting leaner
That grass keeps looking greener
Now I’m spacing out staying in
And I can’t tell how long it’s been
The minutes turn to dog years
And there’s eons in a day
But that’s ok in its own way
Remembering days of yore
About three weeks before
When the world had yet to stop
And I wasn’t scared to shop
Now I’m spacing out staying in
And I can’t tell how long it’s been
The minutes turn to dog years
And there’s eons in a day
But that’s ok in its own way
Now I’m spacing out staying in
And I can’t tell how long it’s been
The minutes turn to dog years
And there’s eons in a day
But that’s ok in its own way
|
||||
9. |
Lurky Loo
01:49
|
|
||
10. |
My Mood Is
02:33
|
|
||
………..
LYRICS:
Little things getting big though they start out small
Negativity rolls downhill and makes a big snowball
Gettin’ mad that I’m sad twisted in a knot
I can’t be bothered to think of all the good things that I got
The clouds came in and I don’t know why
There’s no shelter from the falling sky
I wanna hurry to a bottle and wait for death
My mood is as bad as, my mood is as bad as your breath
Never mind feeling fine all is well again
I’m bringing back all my old bad habits they’re my new best friend
Gonna try getting high staying up all night
I’m a man on a mission to do all the wrong things right
The suns back out and my brains on fire
Full of chemicals that got me inspired
Don’t ask me for a damn cause I don’t give one
My mood is as bright as, my mood is as bright as the sun
I’m so sick of these mood swings
Always doing a dumb thing
No such thing as an even keel
Extremes are what I feel
The clouds came in and I don’t know why
There’s no shelter from the falling sky
I wanna hurry to a bottle and wait for death
My mood is as bad as, my mood is as bad as,
My mood is as bad as your breath
|
||||
11. |
Midday Lullaby
03:03
|
|
||
.............
LYRICS:
Your alarm goes off at the crack of noon
It’s somehow late but also too soon
Trade your night sweats for daytime pjs
To sleep your midday afternoon blues away
Put down your phone and go back to bed
Stop the hamster wheel that spins in your head
A good day’s sleep is your only goal
Let go of things that you can’t control
The day is long so nap in the middle
It takes a lot out of you doing so little
When you’re tired you’re not at your best
Take a break from chilling to get some rest
Put down your phone and go back to bed
Stop the hamster wheel that spins in your head
A good day’s sleep is your only goal
Let go of things that you can’t control
It’s a midday lullaby
The sleepy sun in high in the sky
It’s a midday lullaby
Let’s teach this crawling time how to fly
Up from your nap and the sun’s going down
Bandana Bandits roam this ghost town
We’ll make food or get takeout instead
After dinner we’ll go back to bed
|
||||
12. |
Going to the Store
03:22
|
|
||
.............
LYRICS:
I'm running outta groceries
I should go get some more
It’s always really stressful going to the store
And another thing, who bought all the ice cream?
You have robbed me of my dream
Shopping is a beverage
That nobody enjoys
Everyone avoids it, like coconut La Croix
And another thing, there’s no more mac and cheese
Share your boxes with me please
Walk with me down the aisles
Behind my mask I’ll smile
Buy the food, hurry home
I can breath once we’re alone
We’re standing on the x’s
Each six feet apart
The distance isn’t all bad, it’s probably safe to fart
And another thing, I can’t use my own bags
I’ve got so many, what a drag
I know I’ve been complaining
So here’s some gratitude
Strangers started waving
Nobody’s being rude
And another thing, I’m glad for all of you
And time we spend, family and friends
I love you till the end
Love to all my family and friends
|
||||
13. |
Dicomforter
02:29
|
|
||
………..
LYRICS:
I’m alone and asking why
You knew the truth and still you died
All ‘cause you believed a lie
Your faith meant the most
To you and so I’m here
Writing these verses to a ghost
Your devotion gave you pride
When you got sick you had to hide
Old friends called you and you lied
But they would do the same
In your shoes ‘cause to them
Illness is a thing of shame
Radical reliance
No word of health or science
Is mentioned in your book
Spiritually denying
The fact that you were dying
You were scared of how you’d look
If you hear me from beyond
You know I’m bitter that you’re gone
But I’m here and moving on
I do my best each day
To honor you and now
I’ve finally brought myself to pray
|
||||
14. |
|
|||
15. |
Bunjee - Instrumental
03:48
|
|
||
16. |
|
|||
17. |
|
Ben Lazarus Los Angeles, California
Ben Lazarus is a Los Angeles based singer-songwriter and multi-instrumentalist. His songs are short, sweet, strangely honest and honestly strange. Lazarus is signed to Napier Records, a label founded by Academy award-winning filmmaker Andrew Napier.
Streaming and Download help