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from Ayy by Ben Lazarus




This song is about the infancy of internet dating at the tail end of the dial up era. AOL instant messenger was as popular as texting is now, and it was easy to get to know a stranger through a tiny window. The problem with tiny windows is that most of the other person isn’t visible or accurately represented, so the result can be… disappointing.

~ Ben



I like a girl I’ve never met
I found her on the internet
We IM’d and quickly became friends

She sends me pictures and it lifts my mood
Pretty sure she’s not a dude
We’ll meet next week
Then I’ll feel like less of a geek

She won’t be just a name on my buddy list
But a real live girl to hug and kiss
No more need to type LOL
When we laugh and talk we won’t have to spell
I hope what I feel for her is real

We met last week, I wasn’t floored
Hey let’s face it, I was bored
She kissed me like her lips were two dead fish
Am I lonely? Was my judgment poor?
I don’t like her anymore
She just sent me a text
What will I do next?

Will I tell her she’s rejected
Or that my laptop got infected
Yeah I’m on a top secret mission
Can’t get online without permission
Got one bar of signal on my cell
Can’t hear you too well

When you talk through a window
You can be who you want to be
But is there a brain behind the pretty face I see?

Meeting girls online is nerdy
And surfing sites for porn feels dirty
Am I better off going to the bar
Getting way too drunk to drive my car
I think I’ll just stay home
And turn off my phone


from Ayy, released November 22, 2022

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Written, Composed & Produced by: Ben Lazarus
Executive Producer: Andrew Napier
Vocals, Guitar, Bass & Keyboards: Ben Lazarus
Drums & Percussion: Frank Hegyi
Mixing & Mastering Engineer: Greg Francis
Album Art: Ashley Bradley
Released by: Napier Records

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Ben Lazarus Los Angeles, California

Ben Lazarus is a Los Angeles based singer-songwriter and multi-instrumentalist. His songs are short, sweet, strangely honest and honestly strange. Lazarus is signed to Napier Records, a label founded by Academy award-winning filmmaker Andrew Napier.

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